The Ease of Adjustment

I have not been feeling as alone as I was earlier.  Maybe it is because Randy will be coming home in a few days.  Granted he will have to leave again but at least I will have a couple days with him.  He texts and calls me everyday and that keeps me going.  I am doing what I can to get things straightened up for him.  I am beginning to feel what I call normal again.  Granted a load has been lifted off my mind, Lily and I will get some kind of medical coverage. 
I still remain hopeful that MN Care and U-Care will come to an agreement regarding insuring Lily and me.  I have the confirmation for paying my premium, I just don't have the "approval" that goes with it.  Once I get that all important approval, then I can get my meds again.  I have one days worth of meds left and I am terrified what will happen if I have to go off them for ANY length of time.  Even a missed day or two is enough to cause problems.  I just hate when it gets to crunch time and everything is out of my control.  I wish some of the people in charge would have to live with what I live with.  Then they will see the importance that medications play for people.  It isn't as if you can just go off your meds and be fine.  There is a reason we take medication.  I am sure for most of  us, if we didn't need it, we wouldn't be on it.  I know I wouldn't.  But at the moment I have no choice.  My medication allows me to function day to day as a member of society.  Without them, I am unable to function in society.  Sometimes it seems that the state or the county don't really care.  To them you are just a number in the process.  Sometimes not even human.  It is rather a shame that it must be this way.